Sunday, December 27, 2009

My first Juleaften at the Jensens'

As I was just walking back home from my lab thinking about how it would be to spend Christmas all alone - (don't get me wrong! I am a very sociable person but it's just my luck that this year i am stuck here while all my friends are on vacation) inside my room watching 'Friends' and sipping tea or watching the snow and thinking for the hundredth time how beautiful it is or simply pulling over my blankets and drifting off to sleep....... my mobile rang. Mr Jensen and his wife had just invited me to spend Christmas eve with their family ! My first traditional Christmas dinner in Denmark. I was a bit apprehensive because

1. I didn't know what was the perfect gift to buy for a really sweet old danish couple who didn't want me to spend Christmas eve alone
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2. I had no clue what to expect ... would there be a huge party- many people talking in Danish and me just looking at their faces and laughing from time to time to show that i am fitting in fine or would it be just the two of them and i would have to entertain them by talking about why we celebrate Diwali or perhaps Mr Jensen would be dressed as Santa Claus - now, that would be fun to watch !

Nevertheless, I decided to take the plunge and go ! I had big plans of baking some cookies - I had recently bought a cookie mould to encourage myself to improve my baking skills. Well, i must admit i have somehow learnt the art of procrastination in between working in the lab and writing papers much to my supervisor's annoyance, but that's another story :-). So, i never baked any cookies neither had i thought of the perfect gift nor had i bought it. The evening before, I hurried to the shopping mall which was, needless to say, uncomfortably crowded. I saw a box of six red hearts made of glass - decorative pieces for the Christmas tree and i thought ''perfect'' ! I was proud of myself at having found something so beautiful in such short notice. I was walking out of the shop and that's when i noticed the wreath with four red candles. I knew lighting the candles on the wreath before dinner is a Christmas tradition in Denmark and that would have been the perfect gift.. so much for my efforts on buying the hearts. Further away i saw Glogg, a warm spiced red wine and thought - ''oh no! this is the perfect gift...not the hearts, not the wreath but the Glogg''....I literally ran out before I could spot something else ! I made a mental promise to remind myself to wear blinders before i go shopping for a perfect gift.

I was already twenty minutes late. I rang the door bell half expecting a huge Santa Claus to welcome me, instead I saw Mr Jensen in an apron. His son and daughter who were about my age were also present and it was just the five of us for dinner. So, I didn't have to worry about staring at faces or entertaining the old couple all by myself....''okay ! so far so good....''
Traditional danish Christmas dinner was served soon and it was nothing less than a feast ! Unfortunately, i am big time veggie. I had several failed attempts at trying to explain to Mr Jensen that it was no biggie being a veggie in India and i am definitely not going to be malnutritioned by just eating vegetables. So, on Christmas eve the least i could do was to spare him the story again and just pretend to have a sick stomach which i hoped would explain why i am not eating anything but vegetables. It worked ! Thank god for small mercies !! :-). However, i looked at the dishes and couldn't stop wondering how it would be like to become a full time carnivore ! The main course included a large roasted duck (or may be goose -couldn't tell), roasted chicken, fish in white sauce and lamb meat. I was told the duck was stuffed with mashed apple. This was served with boiled potatoes, sweet potatoes, red cabbage and melon. There was also cranberry sauce. I stuffed myself with boiled potatoes and cabbage (now don't judge me, i had to prove i am not malnutritioned :-P). We talked a little bit about Mr Santa and the popular danish belief that he lives in Greenland with Mrs Claus and the elves who work in his factory which produces gifts for all the children of Denmark. Mr Jensen also told me that the Christmas seal that is placed on the post cards during the holiday season was first started by a Danish clerk in the postal department in the 1900s to raise funds for respiratory diseases that children often suffered from during those times. Denmark has a long tradition of housing samaritans or so it seems and i can vouch that Mr Jensen is one of them :-). I also came to know that Jensen's daughter, Line is a school teacher. Apparently, kids these days are very notrious but charming enough to get away with their atrocities and there is nothing much one can do about it - i always thought so too whenever i felt helpless around my manipulative little cousins ... So now it's offical and universal around the globe !
Soon the dessert was served. It was rice pudding with thick whipped cream, vanilla and diced almonds served with hot cherry sauce. Yummmm.... ! I was told that a full almond was hidden in the rice pudding and the person who gets it is the lucky finder and also gets a prize. However, the untold rule is that the lucky finder doesn't say it until everyone is tired of eating the pudding. So everyone ate and ate in the hope of finding the almond and Line turned out to be the lucky finder of the almond !

After dinner Mr Jensen showed me around the house and it was beautifully decorated with little elves and Santas everywhere. Then we all lit the candles placed on the Christmas tree and when the lights were switched off, it looked truly spectacular. If there is anything that i had seen so far which even came close to what the Christmas tree looked like, it was probably the Eiffel tower at night. Then all of us held hands and danced around the tree signing danish Christmas carols. We had little tea breaks to charge ourselves after every song. Everyone started opening the gifts while i munched on fruits, cookies and candies. I must admit that watching people open presents after presents is not all that fun especially when they are not for you. It was well past midnight and everyone had switched over to Danish in their excitement and I couldn't help yawning. So i munched and munched while fighting to keep my eyes open. As if on cue, Mr Jensen thrust a nicely wrapped gift into my hands and asked me to open it. I had three guesses but i got it right in my first guess - it was a book ! Great ! Now, which one ? By now i was wide awake ! It was a perfect gift for someone who is not a Dane and something to take back home from Denmark. The complete Hans Christian Andersen Fairy tales !! Originally born in Odense in the 1800s, Hans Christian Andersen later moved to Copenhagen to start a career in acting but ended up becoming a writer. One can never outgrow reading Hans Christian Andersen's stories in a life time !! Mrs Jensen thanked me for the lovely red hearts and hung them on the Christmas tree. Whatever guilt was creeping in slowly for not selecting the perfect gift vanished as soon as i saw the red hearts glistening in the candle light against the darkness of the room :-). My day was complete ! I knew i would crash on their sofa if i didn't leave soon. After many hugs and handshakes, i finally stepped out of the warmth of Mr Jensen's house. It was biting cold, almost -8 degrees C and clutching my fairy tale book i walked back home in the slushy snow. I saw light glowing in many houses and wondered which part of the danish Christmas was going on - dinner or singing or lighting candles or opening presents ??

I could have never imagined such a quiet celebration in my home in India any time of the year, nevertheless, the danish christmas celebration is second to none ! You have to experience it to know what i am talking about ! :-)

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Dr Vs Dr

A question addressing all the doctors and doctors ......

Which one are you/would you rather be ? Would either one come to conclusion as to who is more of the useful kind in the real world ?

(Whether you are the one in the white coat sticking a thermometer under someone's tongue or the one in the white coat pippetting all night long, it doesn't matter... we are all lab rats and we would probably remain so for the rest of our lives inspite of everything that i have just jotted down ....)

You are completely stressed out and exhausted. You hardly got any sleep last night ...again ! Inspite of working harder with not much of a financial gain as expected and more personal compromises, the senior authorities always seem to be dissatisfied. Hardly any sympathy from the public and their demands only seem to be increasing everyday. The services no longer receive the deserved acknowledgement and if anything the public only seem to be less grateful day by day. Any amount of experience still doesnt seem to be good enough and government's fidilities with the funding and buying of equipments only leaves you more frustrated. The numerous advanced degrees and accolades hanging on the wall in your dingy office are merely covering up that hole in the wall you made when you were frustrated which only left you with swollen knuckles and not a thing changed . The external rewards and appreciation, autonomy and job security are that of the past. Peer pressure, highly criticizing authorities, the precarious condition of relationship with your spouse/parter due to lack of devoting enough time to him/her, being at the mercy of another collaborating specialist who drives you crazy with his condesceding attitude, when you try to sleep your brain starts churning again thinking 'when will i ever settle down in a permanant job and breathe properly again' ..... does this briefly sum up your life at the moment ?
What keeps you going on ?? - Perhaps your dedication to your field / interesting work /passion for whatever it is that you are doing eventhough you are cursing yourself day in and day out for choosing this in the first place / making a difference however big/small in the society and seeing that happen ???

Okay !! If you have had the patience to read this till the end, then you are probably one of the doctors ......
So that brings me back to the same question - which one are you/would you rather be and who would you say is more of the useful kind for the society ?

Monday, October 12, 2009

Boredom ....

Day after day as I sit
And hear the clock tick
I think, today is just yet another
So why at all bother?
Every single moment seems magnified
Boredom personified….
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If you are reading this….
Then I know what you are thinking
So I take my cue
To say adieu !!!

My life isn’t even half as boring as this scribbling but I just want to remind myself that when things start getting kinda monotonous …..thats y this piece of writing :-)

Monday, May 11, 2009

PhD....??!!

It has been quite a while since i sat down to pen my thoughts....
Well ! Ever since i left for Osnabrueck(Germany) I have been on a long rollercoaster ride and i still havent seen the end, infact i dont even know when the ride would end and how it would be but i am definitely waiting for the day i would look back and say : yes! i endured it !!
Anyway, am back in Aarhus (Denmark) and my experiments are monotonous. Actually, monotonous is a fancy word for dull and boring. Yet every morning i painfully try to drag myself out of bed and come to office, work long hours, silently curse my fate for the repeatedly failed experiments and go back home dreary and drained out. During one of my cribbing sessions earlier in life, my granddad taught me a poem:

''The woods are lovely dark and deep
But I have promises to keep
And miles to go before i sleep
And miles to go before i sleep ''

One of the early poems of Robert Frost. I had written that in big bold letters on a piece of paper and hug it infront of my bed. In 2006, when i was doing my Masters struggling through Solid state theory, it actually helped and worked !! For some reason, it seemed to have lost its magical effect during my PhD.

People tell me this is what researching is all about: you just keep RE-searching. My patience is wearing out. I still have tiny bit of energy left to drag until the end and just see what it is like at the end of the tunnel. So for now, the prospect of going back home , falling asleep putting behind the experiments, pressure to make publications and all the associated tasks and dreaming of a peaceful stress free life keeps me going.....